the Nixionary

I’ve been swimming a lot lately because moving through water feels like it equalizes my body more than ever. Most days, I feel better than normal now, a little more calm or mattering more or something. But there are small annoyances. I have sacroillia join point from the hormones making my pelvis wider and my [...]

I’m in Cayucos for the weekend, the small seaside town where Luke and his family used to come in the summers when he was young and still got in big trouble and had privileges like crab fishing taken away. I had planned to be here with Luke and his parents since this is the marathon [...]

I’ve been living off rotisserie chicken. Because I’m five months pregnant. And because Luke already left for Alaska. Five months ago, I meant to blog about our house, post before and after’s, plant vegetables, paint the second bedroom, write more, puke less, but I learned no matter how excited you are to be pregnant, first [...]

I got frustrated yesterday. I know part of buying a new house is being patient, but what about when you don’t feel like being patient? By mid-day yesterday, I had finished painting the kitchen, the pantry, and the upstairs bathroom, and there was nothing else for me to do. There was tons for me to [...]

We slept in our new house for the first time last night. Woke to gray light coming through gray curtains. I had dreams about Paris and La Familia, the pool in Baker where I used to swim. It has only been a week, and that neighborhood feels like snow-covered streets in a different city. (The [...]